WebMD defines insomnia as “A sleep disorder that is characterized by difficulty falling and/or staying asleep. People with insomnia have one or more of the following symptoms:Difficulty falling asleep, Waking up often during the night and having trouble going back to sleep, Waking up too early in the morning, Feeling tired upon waking.”
This hits the nail on the head for the last week or so. I’m already a light sleeper/night owl/morning person who averages 3-5 hours of sleep a night for the last 3 years. It’s that time of the year when everything starts all over for me thinking about when my life changed forever. I didn’t think about that until just now when I realized that it is July 12, making it three years ago today that I found out Timile was pregnant with Cydney.
There has been lots thoughts running through my mind that have induced stress. I can’t talk about some matters because they are quite personal, but I do know what’s bothering me. I’m tired all day running around and keeping some kind of vigil over my nephew and Cydney. When I do out Cydney to bed, I am still beat, but restlessness turns into adrenaline and I am wired. It’s not even productive energy because I’m too tired to be productive. I’ve tried to run it off and ride my bike a couple of miles to burn it off. Doesn’t work.
I’ll finally fall asleep as early as 4:30 and typically wake up between 6-7:30 with a headache resembling a hangover or withdrawal from caffeine (the latter makes perfect sense). Either way, I still gotta get up and very soon the children will be awake and its time to start the day.
I say this to say pray for me for some peace in my life as well as some sleep. Thank you all.