I was talking with a fellow blogger a few days ago. It was someone who had been reading my adventures for a couple of months by now. They’d asked on twitter for some advice about branding and I offered to give some advice. As the conversation went on, she asked me questions about my own site and about music. I shared with her a song or toe that I’d made recently. She asked me that if I didn’t have to worry about money what would I be doing.
I thoughts about it for a second and my answer was exactly what I’m doing now.
Fortunately I’ve been put in a position where I do the things that I love. I love to write. The two things that I almost passionate about are parenting and music. I write about both. Unfortunately it pays peanuts so it’s a grind. Taking care of my little one means that I need more than the little that I make.
I’ve had to be very patient. To be gainfully employed I’ve done just about everything that I can. I’ve prayed for God to show me the way and this is where I’ve been lead…to wait. The more that I’ve waited I have actively pursued other means and just keep waiting. I don’t get mad at God because I’ve learned that His timing is perfect. It doesn’t really align with what I have in mind at the current time but that’s just the way it goes.
Since I graduated from college, everything has been one big hustle. I worked in retail, sold cars, facilitated and negotiated the sales of homes for people with distressed mortgages, sold music, and now I write. Had things worked out five or six years ago my life would have been very different. There was nothing I wanted to do more than marry Timile. Deep down she knew that but seeing me struggle had put a damper on our relationship. Money does that to partnerships and marriage. Had things worked out and we got married, Timile would have still got cancer and died. Her treatments costing close to $60,000 a month, most jobs that I would have had would have not covered everything and I would owe a mortgage in co-pays after funeral expenses and a child to raise on my own. It sucks that I couldn’t give her the one thing I really wanted to, but God saw fit otherwise.
Had I been 9-5’ing it over the last year and a half, I wouldn’t have had the time or the thoughts that have come along with this blog. It may not seem like a lot, but I’m positive with as many views that have come along I’ve helped someone along the way. It’s opened up many doors so far, so I know that it will continue to do so. Being in a time of distress causes people to get really creative and then opportunities come from out of nowhere.
I say all of this to say that we all have things that we are waiting for. We have dreams and goals that we are working towards and it seems like there will never be a light at the end of the tunnel. It’ll come when the time is right. Just keep working and have the same enthusiasm now that you did when you first dreamt it and that you will when they come to fruition. If they don’t, just know that it is for good reason and that I’d because there is something bigger out there.